I welcome 2021 with plenty of tears. Never in my life my new year has been so painful, hurtful and shameful. I feel rejected and unloved. Troubled. Complicated. Difficult to be loved.
My career is going south. my relationship is a total failure. my family is pretty much non-existence. I am just me alone in this world.
I live a failed life. I didn’t know where went wrong but i feel like an object rather than human. People are just using me. Noone cares about how i feel, how i was doing, have i eaten, how was my day, how is my work, what did i do today.
My life is so empty. I feel so sick and painful. I am tired. Tired of trying. Tired of judgement. I feel totally hopeless. I don’t even know why was j born i in this world or why would people give birth to a living being and made them face this world alone.
I just want to leave and go far. Far away from everyone. Just far.