There is no such things as being consistent. The world changes and evolves. Learn to adapt our environment.
I dont feel calm. I am tired. I am struggling at work. I make hasty decision.
I need to gather myself and start to search which i dont know searching for what.
An old friend of mine just got back from visiting the rohingya refugee. Hope i spell it correctly. He told me his story half way since i couldnt take it. Ive been trying to feel good about myself and everything around me. And that made me realised how lucky am i now. Atleast i have a place to stay, relax and sleep called home. I have a place to clean myself. I have food at home. Family who keeps me accompanied. I have a job with decent pay. Alhamdulillah.
Relationship with a partner is not everything. While i am too busy worrying about petty things, there are people out there starving and being treated worst than animal. Let us all pray for their safety, health and happiness.
Never underestimate our instinct. Instinct never lies. It detects behavior and trends through our past experience. We normally eliminate instinct in an attempt of being rational. Like it or not but to always trust our gut feelings.
3days to go to weekend, followed by another 3 days to a short break. I cant wait to meet ‘the lady’ championing performing arts, being part of my journey in pursuing my happiness. I need to feel connected. Else it becomes mundane and mechanical.
I have the tendency to believe what people said and follow them. Sometimes i dont even know what people have done to me. Life can be ruthless. So don’t wish for drama or all thay glitters cos we do not know if we could handle it and how harsh it may turn out.
The man that i trusted most in my life has turned his back against me. I hope i can be cold like i used to be. Wake up and learn a lesson – learn to be an iced queen.
And now i could checked one box – a teddy boy in the box. Bitter sweet memories. No break ups can be done in a civilised manner. An end to an old chapter.