God is the Great!
When i wanted to be part of the project early this year, my boss said to me that i can’t because i don’t know. Henceforth, he took my new colleague to be in the project team.
Yesterday, maybe after 5weeks from project inception, the project team leader insisted that my new colleague to be removed from the team. My boss had no choice but to follow accordingly.
I wasn’t quite sure the reason but all i realised was only one thing – God has answered my prayers.
I wonder if he still thinks of me. Perhaps he has moved on. I think of him a lot lately. Wonder what he has been up to?
1month has passed.
I am a mess. Still. Uncapable of loving anyone. Letting anyone into my life.
I couldnt stop thinking about him yesterday. Thus led to his presence in my sleep last night.
Today i got my letter and realised that the date of my new endeavour has been fixed on his birthday.
I couldnt decipher anything and i will not react until I come back from my trip.
24 days to go. I shall spend them wisely. Soon i will lose the free time and back to hectic schedule.
These 24 days give me the space to reflect on my life, aspiration and goals. To let go and appreciate. To look for the good in the bad. To make peace and to device a plan. An impactful plan to strike back.
Never lose the courage and energy to fight for what you can’t stop thinking regardless what others said.
As my dad confirmed that we will not be going to Mecca. I worked on Travel Plan B. Thus far, it has been keeping me occupied which includes:
- Researching on places of attraction and hotels
- Understanding the values of these places
- Looking for these places in Google Map
- Figuring out number of days and nights to be spending at each location
- Reading reviews on Trip Advisor, which i must say really helpful in prioritising visits to the main attraction areas
- Refining the trip plan
- Contacting tour guides on packages
Yes, i am a well-structured person and i like my itinerary to be well-planned so that i could dispose my worries away while travelling and enjoy sight-seeing.
I watched them from far then left. They seemed content. I thought best for me to leave and not to burn myself with anger and frustration.
They refer to my dad, stepmom and stepsister.
It is irony how you act as a love doctor to your friends, teaching them how to attract the man they want and they did it, whilst here you are – alone and single with zero dates and no prospects.
My advice was based on a dear bestfriend of mine, who was determined to get married regardless the obstacles were. This conversation took place in early 2015. End of 2015 she got engaged and married by August 2016!
So last year, my former schoolmate told me that she’d prefer to go out with foreigners and she had no clue where and how to begin or to find. So i shared with her my bestfriend’s story and advised her to be determined on her intention in attracting what she wants. Weeks later she did it and until today still seeing the German guy.
Now i am experimenting on a former colleague of mine, who is currently head over heels with a colleague of hers. We shall wait and see the outcome 😉
So i on another note need to start applying my own advice to myself.😆