I am a classic meltdown. I have come this far yet i have never felt so confused. Within a year i got promoted after 9 months, i was rated one of the highest in the team and i passed CFA level 1. I must have accelerated way too fast that i am now lost.
I asked myself:
– what are my contributions to my family and at work?
– why do i create so much drama?
– why isn’t my soul in bliss?
– am i an asset or a liability?
– why do i feel like i’m floating? I wasn’t tied to anything or rooted firm to the ground.
– why is life so painful?
– what’s happening to me?
– why can’t i stop thinking and wandering?
– what are my strengths and capabilities?
– why do i feel stuck?
– why thinhs aren’t flowing?
– where did my emotions and feelings go?
– why god is punishing me?
For the first time in my life i dont have any drive to perform my daily tasks. I lost interest almost in everything. I don’t know what’s next. I am feeling so tired. Too sick and tired of life and work.
What do you want to do?
What do you want in life?
All i want is to feel like i belong somewhere.